It's transformation Tuesday. I'm headed to get a lymphatic massage today. This year, I have been working hard to take care of myself. I feel amazingly lucky to be able to do some of the things I am doing and know that not everyone has this ability financially to experience this type of healing. What are other options? Take a walk, take an epsom salts and baking soda bath for about $3.00 (the cost of the salts and baking soda), lie in your bed with your eyes covered listening to meditation music on You Tube. Can we transform ourselves? For me, the answer is yes.
Last night I watched American Idol and one of the contestants had been hit by a car and was completely paralyzed from the waist down. After 18 months, he began to walk again. I have a friend with a similar experience. After being hit by a car then run over by the vehicle, he most likely should never walked out of the hospital. He did it and now skateboards and swims and is the single parent to two girls.
We can transform not only ourselves, but our businesses. We only have to have the courage and be open to hearing the message. I launched this business in October, 2015 and walking in my model was drag and drop websites for spiritual entrepreneurs - the visionaries, healers, psychics and teachers of the world. It has evolved into branding and social media, visioning and more! But, I could not let go my past of feng shui, organizing and space healing. I talk more about this in a recent post about hearing the call of my spirit.
I have spent my entire life revisioning, improving, transforming myself and this business is not different. There are a lot of us out there who do not know what we want to be when we grow up and sure as hell are too afraid to put ourselves out there as our own brand! For many of us, we ease out by dipping our toes in the water with essential oils and other direct sale opportunities (I love these models, BTW, for the women who find success with them). But, for many of us, it simply isn't enough and doesn't feed our spirit or our call and we need to transform, to step out of fear, to listen to the silence in order to receive the message. (Speaking of stepping out of fear, I am rebooting my Step Out of Fear course later this month and I promise, you will not want to miss it.)
Yesterday, Stephen Hawking died. Talk about transformation. A genius who lost the ability to move his limbs and gifted us with some of the most transformative thinking in regards to the Universe of our time. I'll be honest, I know little about him, but what I do know is his transformation led to a legacy and I will sharing some of my favorite quotes from him this week via my Instagram and FB pages and right here on the blog.
So, transform sister. Transform, brother and LIVE.YOUR.BEST.LIFE.
The time for the solitary circle, the circle of one, to end. I've known for a very long time, but finding the right circle, the right group, has seemed like too much work. I've stepped into circle, attempted to create my own circles. Now, a circle is in front of me. Do I step in or do I watch from the periphery?
The first circle I attended was in 1997. I had prayed feverishly for 3 things that year. I didn't "goal set", which I do now. There was no vision board (you better believe that visioning is now a huge part of my life). But, there was certainly a singular focus and an understanding that year that if I did not do "something" that my life would NEVER be what it could be, what it was supposed to be.
So, I prayed and thought and visualized in my head for:
1. The love of my life
2. A great job to pull me out of the bonds of retail management
3. A connection to the Divine so real and powerful and would meet me spiritually in the deep primordial way that I so longed for.
Within 6 weeks in late summer/early fall of 1997, they all came to be. My BFF was part of a women's circle and I was invited to come to a weekend with a Shaman from New Zealand, which changed my life and opened a door to something that (this is my ego talking), most people can only dream of - not because they cannot experience it - but because they won't.
Those other two things. Yes, they happened as well. After meeting the Grandfather from NZ, I received a call from an old acquaintance that offered me a fantastic day job in property management AND I met the man I now call "husband". 1997 was a good year.
From that time until 2001, I stood in a circle, twice a week plus equinoxes and solstices with a group of men and women that worked together in earnest and in pursuit of the higher teachings that truly have been mysteries for thousands of years. This was a magical time of my life - in both real and esoteric terms.
But, somewhere along the way, I shifted. I know when it happened. It came with pregnancy. No longer the maiden - stepping into the power of the mother - my eyes adjusted and my place as equal and as a carrier of a different knowledge grew, which made the facilitator of our circle not very happy. Truthfully, it was time. Spirit knew it was time. Discord grew among the circle and unhappiness with the ego of our dear friend who had been our homebase, our "leader" in a way for so long. In 2001, I left that group, not entirely knowing why, but knowing it was the right thing to do.
Over the next couple of years, I stepped in and out of other circles, trying to find a new spiritual home. It never happened. Maybe my fear of being hurt, my knowledge that I needed to focus on motherhood, I don't know. In 2016, I wrote a letter to her, my friend, my mentor, who taught me so much. The letter told her how grateful I was, I thanked her for opening her home and her life and sharing and teaching. A shift happened, as they do when you release.
In 2016, I went to a full moon retreat. I had been leading a small circle off and on at my home for a year or so, when women were interested in coming, but truthfully, this isn't my calling. Am I a teacher? Yes. Coach one and one? Yep. Hold the energy. Yes. Serve as mentor. Of course. But, lead the group in that way. I'll leave it to others. At the retreat, I wasn't going to learn or to even be among sisters. I went to get away, to see if I could reconnect with that part of myself and to see if I could stomach being in a group in this way again.
It was a beautiful weekend and I recharged myself in the way I needed. Now, here we are a year and a half later. My friend, the leader of the retreat, has formed a new sisterhood. A circle of women. I've watched this unfold the last few months as she has geared up to launch this new endeavor. The last few months have found me in great silence and listening for the calls of my soul as I heal from grief and embrace this middle life I have entered. I am listening to Spirit as she guides me forward. My business has changed. My direction has shifted slightly. And, she has told me that I need to be in a circle. No longer a solitary practitioner of her arts.
So, I signed up. It did it. Once in March, once in April. No anxieties. No second guessing. Just the call and answer.
I’m Dana Croy and I am a modern day mama. Balancing family and work is not always easy (not to mention a little self-care). Though being Mama to two fantastic kiddos is a huge part of my life, that was not always the case. I wear many other hats and invite to sit down and find harmony with me.