I was going to blog today about prayer and manifestation and what happens when we don't follow those principals. But, I have something else to tell you. I have been pretty quiet on the blog front, and social media front, and life front for a while. Forgive me. My last post was just after getting my daughter off to school at the beginning of the year and that blog post was titled, "Ya'll" and I said , "Praying for a smooth year." I think that was my intuition kicking in. It must have been. The year has been anything but smooth. In fact, I think the words roller coaster, bumpy road, wind tunnel - those would be accurate descriptions of our year. Who knew we would be here today? I think I did. 

Let's be honest, my life has never been smooth. With the exception of being born with the good fortune of wealthy parents, it really hasn't been smooth. And, I've always been okay with that. I mean, it's life. It's just what happens. Until, it's not just about you, it's about others (like your kids) and you sit and watch and wonder how the heck  you find yourself here.

I cannot yet thrust the curtain fully aside as we are in the midst of what we hope will be a really great transition, but I can state emphatically that if something in your life is not working, then change it. 

A long-term acquaintance of mine, a beloved member of a community that we have long been part of, and who doesn't know our current circumstances, but is familiar as a founding community member said recently on my Instagram page, "It's okay to walk away from things that can't be fixed." 

I will leave you with this. Gratitude. It matters. Pass it on. 

It's 4:30 am and I have been awake since 2. After an hour and a half of tossing and turning I decided to tackle my biggest home task on my list today - cleaning off my desk. During the school year I was able to keep it clean. However, with the kids home and with my hubby home more (due to not having evening activities with the kids), my desk has become a dumping ground for pretty much everything. I have several hours of work to do today (assuming I can stay awake) and knocking this off my list is a blessing. (Trying to find the positive in a sleepless night.)
Today my youngest goes back to school. 6th grade. I'll post a selfie later with her and one of her alone as I promised her breakfast out this morning. Hmmm...I have had one cup of coffee and think I will have another. This may be a 3 cup today.
Have a good one! #insomnia #isitbedtimeyet #coffee

I'm on the road. A lot. Every day I ferry kids from one end of Nashville to the others, meet with clients, see friends, run errands. It crossed my mind one day that we are so fortunate that we have not been in any wrecks, though there have a been a few near misses. Then, it happened. The Moon and I were at a stand still, about 20 cars back  and a guy plowed right into us from behind. It was all slow-motion and a little unreal. Thankfully we were both okay, the car has minimal damage and as I had my foot on the brake, I didn't go into the car in front of me.

After checking to be sure Arwyn was okay, scared and shaken, but okay, and calling the non-emergency Police number, I got out to assess the damage. The man who hit us remained in his car. We pulled off the road into a parking lot and proceeded to wait (for 3 LONG HOT HOURS) for the Police to arrive. In the meantime, my husband came to check on us and took the little one home and I alternated between pacing and sitting in my air conditioned vehicle.

When the Police came and the other driver and I stood outside while the formalities were dealt with, we chatted and I knew there was something to pay attention to during this conversation. As a Cancer with Scorpio rising, I see the hidden that sometimes others don't or won't see and this was no different. The gentleman, in his 60's was overweight in ill-fitting clothing, in need of a hair cut, was in bad health and had been at the hospital getting his prescription filled (the VA was my guess), and seemed so sad and lonely. He was driving his mother's Mercury Marquis and told me about his brother who had died of Agent Orange and his father, a veteran who had fought in 3 wars. It had been 13 years since he lost his father and I am quite sure he still lives in his childhood home. No wedding ring. No mention of a wife or children. Soon, all was finished and we went on our way. I came home and we all swam in our neighbor's pool while chatting with them as I was quite sore and felt a salt-water dip would soothe my bones.

That night and the next day I pondered the events and knew this was a message from the Universe. I know nothing of the man other than what he shared. But, I believe I am an astute judge of character and can sometimes find as much in what is not shared in the story as what is. This man seemed to me to have a life not lived. He also seemed to be holding a grief that has gripped him as he lost his parents and sibling. It appeared he had no data on his phone and shared with me he spent a lot of time watching documentaries on You Tube. 

There have been days in the last year when I have won. I've gotten up and faced the Universe and gripped the bull by the horns and walked away at the end of the day a winner. There have been days when I have been worn down by grief and the weight of all of the things I need to do or places I need to go or feeling physically ill due to everything.  But, at the end of the day, or sometimes the next morning, I remember all I have accomplished and all I have overcome and the goodness around me and begin again.

I don't believe we only live once. But, I do believe we only live THIS life once. Make a good one. Do something good. Something amazing! It may be raising a family, it may be becoming a healer, it may be fame as a recording artist. It may be some of it all. Live life. Forge ahead and be your best. Life your best with no regrets. If you do not already embrace this, start today. It's never too late!

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